Heart broken!

have had my baby's gender already.
and ii'm having a lil boy as expected.
see-ing the pic up there is the face of our precious.
showing the little hand, nose, eyes and mouth if you see clearly.
Happy about it but somehow ii felt that today is the wrong day of posting such a happy event.
due to moodless and unhappiness.
times flies.
we had been tgth for 10mnth and married for 1 mnth.
and things do change after been in a r/s for long.
you're my longest bf if we aren't married.
but somehow, ii don't know why ii felt that we aren't like the past anymore.
yes, you do make me laugh and smile everyday.
you do still coax me when ii'm upset.
but you don't care and love like the past anymore.
am ii thinking too much?
too over sensitive?
in the past when when ii hurt myself or etc over a minor thing, you sure will get very work up.
but as for now, ii aren't see-ing all this anymore.
when ii'm having pain due to the baby, you just simply laugh at my action or use words to show your care.
where's your action?
isit that you're too tired after work and just wanna had a good rest and ignoring everything.
the time we spent are getting lesser.
sometime ii would show that ii don't care but you know ii do care deep down.
ii'm trying to spent more time and cherish every moment we spent.
sometime when ii felt upset of your ignorance ii would use this to comfort myself by saying you're tired after a whole day of work.
to support me and this family.
but this don't last long.
ii just can't keep using this to comfort myself.
you know, you're the reason behind my happy and sad moments?
sometime ii look at the pic we took when we're still in our honeymoon period.
tears rolled down my face.
just purely looking at the pic, the pic is telling me a sweet story we used to have.
after that ii look at our wedding pic.
this time is a different story.
the pic is saying ii'm just happy at the outer.
but in the inner ii might not be that happy.
everyday staying at home and rot.
what ii wish for most?
what ii wish for is you would come home early and can see you longer.
you might be treating me good.
but sorry to say that ii'm greedy.
what ii want is the best from you.
your love, your dote, your pamper, your care and your everything!
but what you're giving me now it's not the best from you.
ii'm giving up!
trying to see tru alot of thing.
trying to just balance my love for you like how you love me.
ii'm now dead like the blog!

Shall update soon.
Take care ppl~

New year trip

finally ii'm back to s'pore again after 4 days of life at m'sia.
counting down my new year at m'sia was awesome!
had good food, good rest(except the first day), new hairdo, shopping spree and gathering.
hehe.
so much laughter back there.
this is the first time hubby spent such a long weekend with me.
total of 96hours!
cool!
now my looks is so much diff.
look kind of old or marture due to the hairstyle.
but ii seriously like the clothes ii bought back there.
mj whenever we have no programmes.
but still there's 2 thing ii kind of disappointed that ii didn't get to do.
which is colour my hair and go to see the night life out there.
Zzz
now it's time for me to look for a job.
ppl out there pls help me a lookout for jobs there which is near bedok and it's start from noon.
best is not retail!
cashier or telemarketer is okay.
due to my pregnancy now, it's really diff to look for a job.
hais.
one more mnth to new year.
have to give ang bao to relative liao.
Shag!
=(

Shall update soon!
Take care ppl~

Baby movement!

baby is already 4 mnth plus already.
hehe.
read from online that mummy first felt the baby movement is at the stage of 4 to 5 mnth time.
at the starting of 4 mnth ii never really felt the baby movement till recently.
having pressure at the tummy then will felt the movement.
my tummy still seems very small.
due to ii don't eat alot.
don't know why it's already have been 4 mnth old already but still sometime not much appetite.
isit the food that doesn't fit my appetite or?
still feeling unwell though.
even it has been stable alot compare to the start but still not that well.
can't take the heat outside.
felt giddy and nausea.
ii'm starting to worry.
wanna look for job at jan.
but ii wonder if ii can cope due to my situation.
hope baby guai guai.
don't make me suffer anymore.
will have much more appetite and won't felt giddy or nausea anymore.
so ii could work and help up hubby.
the baby movement sometime really do felt like bubble moving around.
but now ii can feel the baby like kicking me.
lols.
it's like so cute!
dream of baby earlier on.
dream that he was very heavy.
doesn't even look like newborn.
heavy till ii couldn't even carry him.
and he laugh in his dream.
so damn cute can!!!!
wahahas!
really can't wait to see more of this baby process and how he look like after giving birth.
hope he will be a healthy baby!
baby!
daddy and mummy love you!
=)

Shall update soon!
Take care ppl~

Our wedding photo!

Dead!

wow!
my blog was totally dead for so long.
even to say was busy to update was not really too.
should say lazy!
hahahas!
now my life is different already.
stepping in a new route with bibi.
now ii'm no longer single, nor am ii just attach.
now ii'm officially married!
am someone's wife now.
ii believe my hubby will treat me well.
will dote and love me as before.
and let me bully as much as ii like!
wahahas!
never fail to make me laugh whenever ii bully him.
will laugh like mad lohs.
hais.
but this baby of ours is a torture!
making me feeling different type of unwell everyday.
when can this stop?
sometime just feel like giving up but too late.
ii just have to tahan for another 6mnth jiu hao liao.
Jia you!!!!
now finally having a child of myself, ii finally know the feeling of a mother.
even in the stomach or after giving birth, the time they grow up and etc.
hmm.
shall stop here lerhs.
gonna update my wedding pic instead.

Shall update soon!
Take care ppl~

Pic of our baobei!

this is our baby first pic.

9.4weeks old already.

when ii was lying down the bed and start the scanning, and saw this pic ii was damn happy.

smile was totally on my face.

when the baby start to move.

now the baby is still very small.

even if the baby move, ii also can't really feel it.

this coming wed will be our wedding photo shoot already.

so anxious for that.

but hope the pic will come out well after that.

now, don't know whether is ii sensitive or what.

but ii felt everything have change.

the way you treat me now, the attitude you have towards me now is totally different.

hais.

don't wish to say so much already.

Shall update soon.

Take care ppl~

last day of work

today is my last day of work at far east already.
finally.
don't have to work under china ppl already.
but sian have to look for new job.
intend to look for a cashier job.
won't have to worry this and that whether will have business or not.
Zzz
tmr will be my first appt to kk to have a check up for the baby.
have to wake up early.
but hope will be smooth too.
tmr will be my first scanning.
really wonder how big is the baby already.
and if ii could know the gender tmr that will be the best.
boy or gal?
but make no different to me.
cause no baised!
will treat my child the same but still won't make the baby into ill-bred.
but somehow hope it's a boy so next time when he grow up can do anything.
don't need to worry much.
but gal also okay.
cause can dress her up pretty pretty.
but will be much more straight.
wahahas!

Shall update soon!
Take care ppl~