My 19th b'day bbq at ecp!

hais. really vex!

hais.
ii don't know why nowadays ii'm so possesive and protective now.
and ii start to think alot when ii'm alone or boring.
ii tend to get agitated or paranoid over minor stuff.
ii knew it's minor.
but, ii just can't control.
like her things for example.
you told me it's just more then frens.
and you all aren't tgth before.
and the whole true came out from your mouth after ii had ask a few times.
ii start to think alot.
tears roll down.
why didn't you be truthful from the start.
yes.
you told me it's past.
but ii just couldn't get rid of it.
even when ii see her pic or the name ii will get pissed!
ii even wanna ask you more.
but when ii ask you or not ask you more.
ii know ii think much more.
so what should ii even do?
should ii ask or not?
ii'm getting more and more sensitive too.
thinking you'll betrayed me one day like others of my ex.
or leave me.
promise me.
you won't leave me no matter how bad ii change into.
or how worst ii could be in the future if that happen.
promise me that you will stay by me and stand by me no matter what happen.
love , dote, pamper me like how you do now or even more.
ii might be overboard now or in the future.
but ii promise.
ii'll control or change myself to better.
ii think ii really need you by my side, ever.
ii think ii really can't afford to lose you.
if one day you aren't with me anymore, ii really don't know what ii will end up into.
you always hope that ii will call you laogong one day and for forever.
we shall see if this day will come.
the love ii had for you just can't describe by word, show by action and feel by hands.

Shall update soon.
Take care ppl~

random pic!!!

ii love you, my dearest JAYSON TAN!